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I'm Not Him Anymore

by Kennedy

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Eddie Pelaez
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Eddie Pelaez I've met Tyler once at a show and he was the coolest dude ever. He's starting to be one of my favorite artist. His lyrics and the melody and everything goes so well. This is album is on my top 10 favorite acoustic albums of all time. Good job Tyler, keep it going.
Hugo Escobar
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Hugo Escobar I love the grassroots feel the album has to it. It really adds to the overall experience of the track list and it doesn't hurt that they're really good fucking tunes. Keep up the great work Tyler! Favorite track: True Friends Stab You In The Front.
Isaiah Navarro
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Isaiah Navarro Huge fan of Homesafe so I had to check out my boy Tyler's project. Genius lyrics mixed with rad strumming patterns, all these songs are straight bangers and will have you jamming to them for weeks Favorite track: One Too Many.
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jkleinman13 Great thoughtful songs.
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1.
Well, I never thought that it would come this way; the cost of friendships. And apologies of this or that were nothing to me. It's something I bargain that you will never mean to me. It takes something much more than your wealth to repair all the wounds that you have inflicted. 'Cause I know you don't mean well. Leaving me to battle with everything, Escaping all the space that's in-between us. I barely could walk on the street where we went off and ran our separate ways. My dear, fair-weathered friend, I hope your days of fucking up will end. And some day you will understand why you were always wrong.
2.
I don't feel anything anymore. Not since the days when I felt so sure; Thriving in confidence and my common sense. Well I'm not him anymore. Why'd I go and ascend towards a place filled with doubt? Just shy of where I've been. What's lost is never found. I've been feeling much worse lately These thoughts just won't escape And now I'm in the ground and barely breathing Tasting the dirt and debris This is how you stop me from thinking about how the past can prevent you from moving on? Such a pitiful waste of a life So rot with your kind I don't feeling anything anymore Not since the crave from way back before; Thriving in sustenance and the suddenness of a rush for the cure. Fill the days with the sound of a clock slowing down Up all night in bed all night again Turning around and round Oh, I know it so well; The nightly trend Of dreading rest for the morning starts it all up again. Pit in my stomach til I deem it's only fair to try my best to care. So watch us as we drive off Towards the horizon on the east Our hearts are full of gold but Our minds are weak You say you're gonna miss me But you don't know it yet I'll never come back the same So hold your breath
3.
I couldn't comprehend all your belligerent lies. It's your point I always question. That's what kept me aside from the men that you've beaten. They're barely alive, and you're safe and secure with the thoughts of the lives that you take. Clean up what's been left, 'cause I was never meant to be caught in this mess. So, if this what I deserve then all I can do is take it like the man; The one my father lent a hand to and taught to "never fall and tread." Like a raft, I'll sail to the ocean. Unlike your door, solitude is open. I only watched you fuck with him and waste the time that we had spent. I only watched you fuck with him and all the things I'll soon forget. It comes down to you and I and who walks out alone.
4.
One Too Many 03:39
One by one they ask me; You're always searching for the worst in situations, how are you still so surprised when it all goes wrong? Sarcastic answers fall around from my mouth as I put back a beer. I fucking hate the taste but it feels good tonight and all I do these days is just drink to drink. Thinking I should call you I don't even want to Only after one too many Hoping that you're alright I know I'll be just fine Only after one too many Hum and hum the same routine. I'm always singing the same damn things. Oh woe is me, I'm still fucked up from a past relationship. Get the fuck over it. I have a life that's mine to live. And adding numbers never fills the void It only makes it larger and harder to I know you more than I want to I know you to see right through you Thinking I should call you I don't even want to Only after one too many Hoping that you're alright I know I'll be just fine Only after one too many Well that ain't me The man that you see The subject of your favorite stories, And the one about a girl that was treat so badly Run go run, so far from me I've lost all feeling. Too apathetic to care for more You were blind, but I guess it's my fault for not speaking Thinking I should call you I don't even want to Only after one too many Hoping that you're alright I know I'll be just fine Only after one too many
5.
So now, I'll write it out again. These caved in walls won't handle it. They barely keep above my head and you're not worth the broken fists. I can't tell what takes the toll, The face behind this selfless act? The one in which my mind is sold? I need a look, let me go back. We're both just sitting around Too scared to make the move forward; Our hands are sinking in cement. You're only here for what you want to hear, In that case, I guarantee a long time. I hope you're happy with your life If that's really what you'd call it. The falsehood of your pride is sinking in. I will never waste a second or any of my time for you again. Tell that dead-end job that you'll be working and that girl that's half your age That they might as well get lost because you'll never fucking change.
6.
A true friend stabs you in the front so why do I keep finding my wounds in my back? I hate the fact that I know you well because I know when you're lying. I can always tell when you have something else to say. It's true, 'cause I keep mine shut too. I always knew that I would write this song but I never pictured that I would write it about you. I'm sorry that this all just fell right through but I made my decision and you made your's too. It's something that I won't take back. It's true, 'cause all of it's on you. I've been known to give more chances than bargained for and up for bet to people less deserving for them I become frustrated and less innovative. I let things bottle up. But I won't keep my mouth shut anymore.
7.
Things could be worse. Forget the unforgettable. You think I'm cruel. I don't really think you're one to talk about that. I know I'm cruel. I'll be the first to say it Timing is a son of a bitch. I didn't know you're perfect. We're always on the same page; But never at the same pace. Things could be worse. Forget the unforgettable. I think you're cool. But I don't really want to talk to you about that.
8.
"I miss you more than anything." That's what you tell yourself to stay in check. But a lie is all it takes to break a man. I'll write it off to fate that this can't ever come to fruition. Instead I'll play pretend in my head. You never told me that you're suffocating. Well I guess if anyone asks; you're doing fine. I don't enjoy the plan that you made for me. I told you more than once that I could never see myself in your life. The frame is just too small to comply. Arouse the thoughts that you have where I manifest indifference to all the costs that are glad to break me down, to break me. What does it take to make you honest? Is it exhaust replacing progress? Start over again and we'll face this. Start over again and we'll face this. You're too afraid to make a change in the ways you cope with separating. Roll over in bed and evade this. Roll over in bed. You never told me that you're suffocating. Well I guess if anyone asks; you're doing fine. I don't enjoy the plan that you made for me. I told you more than once that I could never see myself in your life. "I miss you more than anything." Well, if you really cared you'd stay awhile and pace yourself. "I miss you more than anything." Well, if you really cared you'd stay awhile and pace yourself. "I miss you more than anything" Well, what do you want me to say? I can't relate. You never told me that you're suffocating. Well I guess if anyone asks; you're doing fine. I don't enjoy the plan that you made for me. I told you more than once that I could never see myself your life.
9.
Take from me the things you wanted out of loving me so. Hope for now that we can get away. It's for your own sake. I'm getting better, but I don't feel it. Everything you wanted was all that you feared. When you came around your timing wasn't fair All along all that you thought was never clear Why can't you be straight up with me? I've come prepared Say it. Why won't you say it so I don't waste my voice? Say it. Why won't you say it? Say to me that you've been wanting out. I sense it coming. I forgot how to feel anything. So this won't change me. Save yourself the pain and agony, that this will surely Bring forth now I want to get away I've lost all feeling I'm getting better, but I don't feel it. Everything you wanted was all that you feared. When you came around your timing wasn't fair All along all that you thought was never clear Why can't you be straight up with me? I've come prepared

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Recorded by me, myself & I in my bedroom, March 2017.

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released March 27, 2017

Written and Recorded by Tyler Albertson
Artwork by Veronica Clark

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